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So, I woke up at 0135 this morning.
Had to use the facilites.  Now, it's about an hour later, and I'm wide awake.  And Ive got a *long* day tomorrow.


Maybe I'll do some laundry or something.

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From: brickc Date: April 26th, 2006 03:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
for those moments I take el cheapo over the counter Safeway drugs. They're very effective. Usually it only takes half (ie 12.5mg) for me, otherwise I'm groggy in the morning.

Doxylamine succinate
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doxylamine
blackcoat From: blackcoat Date: April 26th, 2006 04:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
My problem is that they interact double plus ungood with a prescription that I take.

well, really it's just that pretty much any sleep aid does, to the point that I wake up groggy and unhappy anyhow. Then I have too much coffee to offset it, then I crash early from the caffine burnout, then I wake up too early. My method is just 'tough it out." It's not like I've never stayed up 30 hours in a row before. *shrug*
From: brickc Date: April 26th, 2006 04:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
sounds like you're on top of it.
blackcoat From: blackcoat Date: April 26th, 2006 04:52 pm (UTC) (Link)
I went through a phase a few years ago where I was pretty well locked into a depressant/stimulant loop. I was getting about 10 hours of sleep in 2-3 hour shifts, per 48 hour period. So, I would take a minor dose of a sleep aid in order to fall asleep about half an hour before I had to sleep, then jumpstart wtih caffine. After a semester of this, I had lost about 25 pounds, most of my sex drive, and a long-term, fairly happy relationship.


I'm more careful about my drug use these days. Besides, I got my laundry done, *and* read a book that I've been looking for time to read. Properly manageed, insomnia is the key to getting more done then the next person.
From: brickc Date: April 26th, 2006 04:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
I am not knocking a method that serves you, but in my book, insomnia is a damaging health condition that is best treated. Cam, at least, on little or interrupted sleep, may not always be cogniscent of it but is meaner, more stubborn, stupider, and can't focus.

Drug use should always be monitored and controlled very carefully... yup. I take about 50 mg a month of that aid.
blackcoat From: blackcoat Date: April 26th, 2006 05:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
I probably am, too..but then again, 'meaner, more stubborn' for me is like spitting in the ocean. To quote ardaniel: "He's already more evil then I am. WTF do you want him to do, go around to people's houses with claymore mines?"

Funny enough, the other day, on too little sleep, I had three young women, all of whom I know reasonably well, tell me that I scared them, just a little bit. And at the time, I took that as a compliment. :)

As for the focus/stupid thing, nothing that needs doing late today is going to require thought, so much as just doing, so I should be alright.
From: brickc Date: April 26th, 2006 05:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
your self-identification with superlative meanness has always confused me. and yet it takes all kinds. When we got coffee, you seemed fairly straight-laced as far as social manners go (augh! I bet that's almost an insult!).

blackcoat From: blackcoat Date: April 26th, 2006 05:23 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think it extends from my dislike of polite social disembling. I never understood why I should not say something that someone else would find rude, or offensive, just because of that fact. Now, this doesn't mean that I go out of my way to offend people, it's just that it happens. This emans that I can varry on a perfectly civil conversation with someone over, say, coffee, or a couple of beers, but if we disagree on a point, or I hold opinons that are offensive to them, it's likely to come up. I am required to self-censor to a pretty annyoing degree in my professional life, and have to most of it's existance, so I take the fact that I don't have to in my personal life very seriously. Also, if I happen to be grumpy and don't want to continue discourse with someone, I'm also very good at the snappy one liner that will make them decide that talking to me is currently a losing bet.

On this flip side of this, I can be a charming little bugger if I want to be, not by telling people what they want to hear, but by telling them only the parts of what I have to say that they will actually listen to. This is a fine distinction, but one that I think that I walk reasonably well.


..and this is a stupidlong reply to a very short note.
From: brickc Date: April 26th, 2006 05:32 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's a very interesting issue, and one that my older brother struggles with a lot.

I think the only important response is to say that for me, a moral structure of, say, compassion does not ask you to withhold your damaging comments because ipso facto they are categorically wrong; it compels you because said comments are hurtful; and THAT is why they are wrong. Since everything is subjective we are compelled to respect the feelings and experiences of other people. Any other approach is hopelessly selfish, if not solipsistic. This does not mean I go around serving other people before myself (whether or not I should), and I am famous for speaking my controversial mind... but I do not defend my freedom to hurt quite as bitterly as you.
blackcoat From: blackcoat Date: April 26th, 2006 06:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
Any other approach is hopelessly selfish, if not solpisitic
This, coming from the man who argued with me about whether or not I existed, or was merely a figment of his imagination.

I'm not sure if I'm bitter about the fact that I'm defending my right to hurt others. In fact, I'm not even sure that I'm stating that it's a right that I have, any more then I'm stating that I have a right to speak what I want, so long as it isn't harrasing, derougatory, or directly insulting. I don't think that I have a right to tell someone, without cause, that they are e.g. ugly, or stupid. But if somebody does something wrong, I feel no remorse at pointing it out in many terms. I also tend to be a bit blunt, particularly where emotional states are involved; mostly because I don't understand it when people get hurt by statements of truth. For instance, I was recently out with a family memeber and a date of his. The subject of one of his ex's came up, he demurred to explain about the messy breakup. She asked me, I responded with, "He was arrested for battery after he hit her in response to her cheating on him, in the middle of a heated argument". This is truth, doesn't leave alot out, was said without malice for him, but many people found my statement to be extremely rude and uncalled for. It's that right to say what I think/feel/know, regardless of how it will effect someone else, that I defend.

I don't feel that in fact, there is a correlation between how hurtful any statement of mine may be and how wrong it is, morally socially.
From: brickc Date: April 26th, 2006 06:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
You're welcome to discuss me anytime. I thought we were talking about you, though.

I think you contradict yourself with your 2nd and final sentences. Who decides if it is 'harassing, derogatory, or insulting'? I think that can only be the recipient; or at least, an amalgam of various opinions.

You subscribe to a moral reality which doesn't condemn speaking openly? Okay, congrats. Most people don't. Since we live in a communal environment people usually compromise their personal desires to help protect others.
lil_pinkbunny From: lil_pinkbunny Date: April 26th, 2006 03:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
u know how to do laundry?! wow!
blackcoat From: blackcoat Date: April 26th, 2006 04:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hun, I've been doing my own laundry since I was 12.
From: brickc Date: April 26th, 2006 04:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
9... :)
lil_pinkbunny From: lil_pinkbunny Date: April 26th, 2006 04:58 pm (UTC) (Link)
i wasnt trying to belittle ur abilities just my husbands abilities :)
blackcoat From: blackcoat Date: April 26th, 2006 05:01 pm (UTC) (Link)
There are just so many, many things I could say in response to this.

I think I'll go with the obvious: "Yeah. And I know what to do in a shower, too!"
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